Monday, April 18, 2011

we're moving. and we moved.

I think most everyone knows that we're moving.  We leave our hearts in San Francisco Mountain View in just two short months and head to West Point.

But (since we like to keep things crazy) we also moved!

Not our boxes and furniture.  But our blog.

We've been meaning to update our blog for some time now.  When we set it up when Kathleen was tiny, we used her name as the blog address.  It made sense to me at the time.  But now, with four little people running around here and with heightened concerns about internet privacy, it doesn't make much sense.

So, we've set up camp at a new address:  http://embracethecircus.wordpress.com/

It'll take a while for us to be all shiny and pretty over there, but we're limping along for now.  So, update your bookmarks or readers or what-have-you.  (You know, all six of you reading along with this circus.)  Future posting will occur at that address only, though we'll keep this one around for a while so that everyone can catch up with us...

(For my bloggy friends who might be wondering, I never really intended to switch from blogger to wordpress, but I found I could not import all my old blog posts to a new blogger blog.  I tried for days.  It took five minutes with wordpress, so I was sold.)

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

not everyone minds the rain

We've had sort of a late spring around here. I know that even saying that makes me sound a little silly; we have friends in New England and friends in Alaska and friends in plenty of places where they get, you know, actual weather. (Like snow. And inches of ice.)

Here we've had lots of rain and plenty of grey. While that might be mild for the rest of the country, it's practically severe for us. And we're more than ready for some sunshine and warmer weather.

Well, I'm ready. John David? Not so much. The downpour taking place during a recent preschool pickup pretty much made his week. He was positively gleeful.

water!


rainy joy


Even outfitted in boots and raincoat, that child still got soaked. He rode home stripped down to his sodden diaper because I was afraid that his wet clothes would make him too cold. (I shouldn't have worried. That kid's impervious to just about everything.) And he smiled the whole time.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

a layover to meet luke

Somehow this got lost in the shuffle... but the day before Luke was baptized, our dear friends John and Amy stopped in to see us while they were on a layover, flying home to Hawaii from a work trip in Kansas. They arranged it just for us, and we couldn't have been happier.

We hung out at home for a while, letting the littles warm up to them. (That took about 45 seconds, by the way.) Kathleen remembered them and their sweet children -- a bit -- from our time in Hawaii, but John and Amy were new faces for the other three. Only a few minutes into their visit it was like we'd never been apart!  John and Amy brought sweet, thoughtful gifts for everyone.  Really, I'm not sure they could have made anyone happier.  Jim and I were over the moon to have some of our favorite Hawaiian treats again. And the girls wore necklaces from John and Amy the next day at the baptism.  They could barely be convinced to take them off for baths and bed!

Eventually we loaded up the whole circus and headed to Stanford to give John and Amy the nickel tour.  We love to show off Stanford's pretty architecture; the kids make sure everyone sees the fountains.  I think John and Amy were just happy to working their way back to Hawaii.  It was a pleasant day here -- not as nice as Hawaii, but far, far more pleasant than the weather in Kansas!  

touring stanford


One neat thing about John and Amy's layover was the timing.  We were baptizing Luke the next day, and John and Amy are his godparents.  We loved that they were able to meet him before he was baptized.  The timing was serendipitous; we made the arrangements to baptize him independently of our friends' travel plans.  What a blessing!

godparents
Luke and his sweet, sweet godparents.

Our time with our friends passed too quickly.  They'll be leaving Hawaii soon; we'll be leaving California soon.  Sadly, we won't be any closer to one another, since they'll be in Washington state and we'll be in New York.  But we hope and trust that we will see each other again soon, even though we don't know when or where that will be.  Aloha a hui hou, friends!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

the wearing o' the green

A much belated St. Patrick's Day post...  because you can't just skip St. Patrick's day!  (At least not if you're me.)

We kicked off our morning with our favorite green smoothies. (I can't tell you how happy it makes me that the kids like these smoothies. Kale and spinach in a glass?  And the children plead for more?  I feel like I've won the lottery when I feed them these.  So I do it sort of a lot.)

st. patty's smoothie


And, of course, everyone wore green:

kathleen green grinning



maddie green grinning


kiss me I'm Irish
This boy, I tell you! He went around all St. Patrick's day saying, "Kish! Kish!" and leaning in to smooch me.   It was adorable.

irish
And I'm physically incapable of not kissing this cutie.

We'd been talking about St. Patrick and about how he'd taught the Irish people about God, and especially how he used the shamrock to teach them about the trinity. We made some salt dough to create our own shamrocks (and some other fun St. Patrick's day shapes). We rolled and cut and baked one day and then painted the next.

painting


shamrocks


Kathleen had school that day, where she and her friends hunted around the schoolyard for coins left by a visiting leprechaun.  She loved it!  We also had soccer on St. Patrick's day.  It was Madeline's first try.  (She's not technically old enough, but they made a "little sister exception.")  She was great!  Both girls will continue with their soccer lessons until we leave...

Finally, since we don't have a river to dye green (you can take the girl out of Chicago...), we dyed our bath water!  Madeline and John David thought it was hilarious.

we don't have a river

(We all hope you had a very...)
Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

may you know days of wonder and delight in Jesus Christ


I will rejoice in the LORD
I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
Habakkuk 3:18

Two Sundays ago, Luke was baptized at our church's regular worship service, just like his brother was a little more than a year ago.  We've all been excited about this event; the girls have been practicing "bath-tisms" in the bathtub for some time now.  In fact, they were the first ones up the morning of the baptism and ran into our bedroom, asking, "Is it today?  Is today Luke's bath-tism?  Can we get ready?"

Nan and Grandpa, Uncle Craig, Aunt Caroline, and cousin Emily joined us to celebrate.  It was a blessing to be surrounded by family.  As an added treat, Auntie Caroline photographed everything for us.  She captured moments we'd never have, like Luke and Daddy sitting together for the beginning of service.  (Plus, it means there are actually a few pictures of me!)

daddy and luke in service

We stood as a family to bring Luke to be baptized.  All six of us in front of the congregation seemed a little risky, but we decided to chance it.  In this case, the risk paid off -- everything went smoothly.  The girls were quiet and stood reasonably still, at least at the start.  Even John David cooperated.  We'd given him a new allergy medicine that morning (we didn't want nursery workers worrying about whether his drippy little nose would infect other children) and it knocked him out! He fell asleep in my arms during worship and woke just as we stood to baptize Luke. He was groggy and snuggly through the baptism. By the time he was fully awake, it was time to go play with his friends in the nursery.

the gang's all here

looking around

Our pastor, Drew, baptized Luke.  The girls watched, rapt.  I wept -- just a little.  So did Luke.

wash me, and I will be whiter than snow

The title of this post comes from the words Drew used in baptizing Luke.  He prayed that Luke would "know days of wonder and delight in Jesus Christ" and that "people would see that wonder in and through" him.  It is a prayer for Luke that I know we will return to, again and again.


(This video will let you see the prayer over Luke... also, that the girls' "standing still" had pretty much ended by that point.)

After the baptism all the children were dismissed to their classes while the service continued.  Luke doesn't have a class, obviously, but he made a break for the nursing mom's room and then took a stroll around outside.

luke and mama

When service concluded we headed home with our family and some dear friends for a little luncheon celebration.  Everyone wanted to snuggle with the little man.

nan and luke

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And we enjoyed some good food...

tasty lunch

and the company of friends and family.

cousins 2
Hooray for cousins!

And -- of course -- there was cake.  Yum!

cake and laughter

It was a sweet day of fellowship, a day in which we were oh-so-aware of the blessings we have received in these children, this community, this covenant.  We wait in joyful hope for the day that Luke will make his own confession of faith.  God bless Luke!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Where's John David?

Look who learned to play hide and seek!

(And maybe isn't totally clear on the concept of being found...)



(And in case you were wondering, the children are not allowed to hide in the armoire with the television. I probably should have clarified that rule as I saw John David climbing in there, but I couldn't resist watching the game play out... and recording it for posterity. We talked about it later, instead. And I've laughed over the video a number of times, so I think it was the right call!)

Saturday, March 19, 2011

not a bedtime story

I looked over the other day and found Madeline reading one of her library books to Luke.  Loving the sweet sight, I snatched my camera and recorded the moment.

dino story


Only, as I crouched to get her picture, I could hear her narration of the dinosaur picture book:

"All of the babies were hiding, until the big dinosaurs came and had them for a meal."

Not precisely the tender moment I had imagined.  If Luke starts having nightmares, I guess we know why!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Four Month Fun (Flashback!)

As Luke grows, we keep finding things about him that remind us of his siblings.  When he was tiny, we thought he looked rather like Kathleen did as an infant.  When he smiles, he reminds me of Madeline.  The way he's starting to squirm makes me think he's going to be busy like John David.  (Heaven help me!)

One thing we've found somewhat entertaining during these discussions is to compare photographs of our children at the same ages.  Here's a roundup of our little circus circa four months:

Kathleen
April 2006 (Honolulu and Mililani, Hawaii)



Madeline
January 2008 (Schofield Barracks, Hawaii)


John David
August 2009 (Mountain View and Palo Alto, CA)

(Honestly, we didn't feed that child anything different.  Same milk.  Enormous baby.  Go figure.)

Luke
April 2011 (Mountain View, California)
surprised?



I think they all look distinctly different at this point; their little personalities are already beginning to emerge.  What do you think?  Are there similarities we're not seeing?

Sunday, March 13, 2011

final thoughts on February

This is a long and rambling post, one that probably isn't all that interesting unless you're me or Jim or our children's grandparents.  But I don't scrapbook.  And I don't journal (reliably).  So, it seems that writing things down here is my best chance at remembering this time in our lives.  I know that even a few years from now, my memories of these months will be hazy.  I feel like I'll certainly remember the laundry that never ends, the dishwasher packed full-to-the-gills, the minivan littered with apple slices and carrot sticks, the house that is never really, fully clean, the feeling of never being entirely rested. (Sleep?  What's that?)  Maybe I will.  Maybe I won't.  But what I want to remember are the little things about these little people that make me smile, the glimpses into the people they're becoming.  What I want to remember is the joy of watching them grow.

February was a big month for Luke. He has gotten much stronger, thanks to plenty of practice sitting in the Bumbo.

luke in bumbo

Luke perfected his smiling and branched out into full-fledged laughing. He also honed his rolling skills. That child can roll. He prefers to be on his stomach, whether for playing or (much to Mama's chagrin) sleeping. If laid on his back, Luke immediately flips onto his belly. No kidding -- he's fast! He already shows signs of skooching (that's a technical term -- and one that I can't spell), heaven help us.

rolling

And, much to Kathleen's dismay, Luke has begun grabbing. Mostly toys and burp cloths (he loves to chew on those!) and -- more than occasionally -- hair.

grabby luke

February has been a big month for John David, too.  As always, he's kept us on our toes.  For example, there was the morning that I left him to play at the sink... and turned back to find him in the sink.

IN the sink

Or the day we discovered that John David does not understand the ground rules for using dot markers.

dot marker mayhem

Or the afternoon he un-potted my remaining tomato plants.  And apparently attempted to eat the potting soil...


eat dirt

In more, well, positive news, John David made huge language gains this month.  He's talking more and more clearly and more and more frequently.  He's using new words and new phrases every day.  Honestly, the child is a little parrot.  He'll repeat almost anything.  (I'm glad we don't curse!  He does say, "rats," though.)  He begs to read books.  It brings me great joy to have my non-stop boy snuggled up against me listening to a story.  It's hard to limit him at bedtime; he'd read for hours if you'd let him.  Current favorites include Boom Boom Go Away (which I don't really even like, since the child tells his parents to go away, but which John David adores), No, David! (we theorize that he believes the story is actually about him) and Dr. Suess' ABC.

One of John David's best phrases is "thank you" (though he renders it more like "ganku").  He uses it almost more consistently than his older sisters.  In fact, I sometimes joke that there are days when it's what keeps me from completely giving up on him!  Also, John David rarely says yes.  Like most almost-two-year-olds, he loves "no."  But when he is inclined to say yes, he always says, "Sure!"  He'll repeat rapidly and loudly his version of the word for whatever he desires.  You'll spend several minutes puzzling through his meaning, finally repeat what you think he's asking, and he'll respond, "Sure!" as if to say, "Well, I wasn't going to say anything, but now that you mention it, that sounds fine."

He also loves to dance.  He dances like his ballerina sisters, arms stretched over his head.  And one afternoon when we were all dancing along to the Weepies (I Was Made for Sunny Days), I threw in some snapping.  John David couldn't get enough!  He joined right in, wiggling his fingers and making clicking noises with his tongue.

John David's climbing escapades continue.  This month he discovered how to climb out his crib.  One evening when Jim came home during the post-dinner, pre-bed bathtime rush, John David was enduring a timeout in his crib.  While Jim and I conversed in the hall, John David suddenly ran right by us.  Whoops!  Mercifully, he hasn't escaped at bedtime or naptime.  Perhaps he knows that might send me over the edge.

Basically, the child is living up to his nickname.  He's all Indiana Jones.  And it doesn't hurt that he's got the jacket and the hat to prove it.

indy apple 1

indy apple 2

The girls continue to adore their littlest brother.  They hold him and snuggle him and kiss him every chance they get.

snuggling

sweet kathleen

In other news, our snail collection has doubled. Katherine and James have been joined by Kathleen and Similar. Kathleen named her snail after herself. Similar is technically Madeline's snail, and she's named after Madeline's doll. Both Madeline and Kathleen received princess dolls this Christmas -- Kathleen's is blonde and Madeline's is brunette. Otherwise, they look, well, similar. And that's why Madeline named her doll Similar. Why she wanted to name her snail after the doll she sleeps with remains a mystery.  I suppose it's no stranger than naming a garden snail after yourself.

Madeline claims to have bad dreams lately.  She creeps down the stairs about 45 minutes after she and her sister have gone to bed, when Kathleen is already sleeping soundly.  "Mama, Daddy," she whispers, "I had a gary [scary] dream."  When she gets to the bottom we ask what happened in the scary dream.  "Um," she begins, "There was a..." Her eyes dart around the room, coming to rest on the lamp.  "A light!  And it was chasing..." Another pause while she looks around, clearly seeking inspiration.  "A table.  It was scary."  We know it's not true, but we let her sit with us a moment and then tell her it's time to go back to bed.  "So," she says, grinning, "I had another bad dream.  There was a..."  We know it's naughty, but it's awfully cute.

Kathleen learned a table blessing at preschool, sung to the tune of Frere Jacques.  It's the children's favorite grace now.  They all sing it -- even John David.  But Madeline recently became sad that she didn't have her "own" prayer.  (We call the blessing "Kathleen's school prayer" for lack of a better name.)  We offered up the doxology, which the children all enjoy singing.  Madeline rejected that, though, because she wanted it to be "hers."  Ever a problem solver, she made up her own.  She will now sing her prayer at every opportunity.  She simply sings "everybody loves God" until we prompt her to stop with an Amen.  Her theology might be a bit lacking, but we love her heart.

Kathleen is fascinated by science.  She and her classmates have done some "experiments" at preschool, which Kathleen has absolutely loved.  Jim and I have watched (carefully screened) Nova episodes with her, and she will sometimes ask to watch a "special science show."  She'll often tell us as she's running around playing that she's trying to figure something out: "I'm being a scientist!"

She loves her "alone time" with me each day, when the other children are still napping.  That's when we work on her reading (we're working through the BOB books very, very slowly) or watch a science show or cook (too dangerous with John David around!) or sometimes just talk.  She guards the time jealously.  I hope she'll always love it that much!

Perhaps the most fun this month has been watching the girls and John David play together.  They work out elaborate imaginative scenarios and seem to enjoy directing John David's intermittent participation.  In many ways, they love the same things: books and bubbles and the playground and treats.  Watching them run around together in a little gaggle, laughing and playing makes my heart full.  It's not idyllic by any means; I mediate more than my fair share of disagreements. But it's that togetherness that I love.  And that's what I'd like to remember this month.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

our hearts can't help but sing

(Okay, so Valentine's Day was almost a month ago.  That's a long time.  But it means that this post is actually two weeks earlier than my New Year's Eve post.  I'm catching up!  Sort of...)

We love Valentine's Day here at the circus.  Our little people love any reason to decorate, to give gifts, to eat special foods, to celebrate.  (In fact, our girls were mightily disappointed that we didn't decorate for the Super Bowl.  We had chips and other treats, so it was a party.  But they really thought we should have decorated.)  And hearts.  The girls just love hearts.

Because this is Kathleen's first year in school, this was the first year we really needed to make Valentines.  (We've been doing it since she was tiny.  But this was the first year it really mattered!)  She and I were really excited about making crayon hearts for her classmates.  Sugar free, allergy friendly, and basically free -- they were the perfect choice for us!  We'd sorted all our old, broken crayons at Christmas time when we dipped pinecones in melted crayons, so a lot of the work was already done for us.  We stood together in the kitchen, snapping crayons and sorting them into different molds.  (In case you were wondering, we melted them in the microwave and Mama poured them into chocolate molds and set them in the freezer.)

heart crayon closeup
three crayon hearts

We were so excited to pop the crayons out of their molds!  After the crayons were done, we attached each one to a cute printable Valentine card we'd found online.  (Ah, the internet.  How I love it!)  Kathleen carefully signed each one.  I was proud of the way she persevered through that part of the project; it was not her favorite part.

Kathleen got to deliver her Valentines during her preschool class's party.  Even though Kathleen doesn't usually attend school on Mondays, the preschool director invited her to come for the whole morning so that she wouldn't miss any of the fun.  Our grand plan hit one snag -- Kathleen almost didn't go because she hadn't realized that she'd go to school alone.  She wanted our whole family to be at the party.  We promised a family lunch instead, which placated her.

At noon we picked Kathleen up from school and met Daddy for a special Valentine's lunch.  And though we thoroughly enjoyed our lunch, we enjoyed the special dessert at Cold Stone even more!

girls on valentine's day
Delighted girls!

indy valentine's day
The days of being able to share an ice cream with John David are long gone.  
He ate his and a good share of mine.  That boy loves ice cream!

We continued our Valentine's Day extravaganza with a special dinner at a friends' home.  (The girls had been itching to go to their friends' from the the moment they woke.  It was the very first thing they said. "Can we go to Evan and Natalie's now?")  There we feasted on heart shaped pizzas, watermelon (cut with heart-shaped cookie cutters), and heart shaped cookies, which we'd decorated that afternoon.

It was a full day -- full of food and friends and lots and lots of love.  Of course, love always points us back to Love. And that makes our hearts sing.

Since from His bounty I receive
Such proofs of love divine
Had I a thousand hearts to give
Lord, they should all be Thine
A thousand men could not compose
A worthy song to bring
Yet Your love is a melody
Our hearts can’t help but sing! (Samuel Stennett, Laura Taylor)

Friday, February 25, 2011

a photo shoot

It occurred to me recently that there aren't nearly as many photographs of sweet little Luke as I would like there to be.  I suppose it's the lot of the fourth child, but the poor guy hasn't been the subject of as many snapshots as his siblings have been.  And as you can probably guess, I feel more than a little guilty about that.

When Luke was grinning in his Bumbo the other day, I attempted to assuage my mother's guilt.  But, as you know, getting a photo of only one child (Luke in particular) is next to impossible with this group.  No sooner had I pulled out the camera than siblings were angling to get in the shot.  First one, then a second, then a third.  All four kids together!

Predictably, none of the photographs was "perfect."  But somehow the series of photographs captured what no single photo could -- a real glimpse into life at our circus.

So, without further ado, a circus photo shoot:  

photo shoot 1


photo shoot 2


photo shoot 3


photo shoot 4


photo shoot 5


photo shoot 6


photo shoot 7

photo shoot 8


photo shoot 9


photo shoot 10


photo shoot 11

I love these people!  (Even though they sometimes drive me crazy.)